ஐயோ!

y u so liddat one 啊?

Recurrent dreams

I’m not quite sure when it all started, but I can trace this one dream back to at least 3 years from now. I can’t tell either how many times it’s been already ‘cos I don’t keep a dream journal every time I wake up and can recall my dreams. All I know is that it has happened often enough to grab my attention and make me wonder what it is all about. I mean, I don’t really believe that dreams have a meaning. Or perhaps I don’t buy that kind of rational explanations some people insist in trying to find.

The funny thing is that this dream has many variations. Almost all of them are about finals at either High School or college. People on them are usually random: sometimes, even if the dream takes part in my HS days, the ones on them are from college, same batch as me, but can be my juniors and seniors as well. A few times, they’re people who I’ve never studied with, but have met at some given point of my life, and can even be anonymous faces I don’t even recall having ever met.

What changes every time is the level of stress. In some of them, I feel very relaxed, like “Oh boy, I can’t believe I’m finally graduating from HS” thing or some situation I have under my control. Others, I’d say most of them, are quite stressful: I know shit about the course syllabus, or I show up for the exam and can’t answer any questions, can’t finish it on time and so on.

A pattern that has been quite frequent lately is not knowing if I have enough attendance to pass the course or having signed up for the course and not even knowing who the instructor is. And that is probably the only coherent part of it, where I make sense in the dream about how wrong it is.

Here is all I remember from my dream from last night:

I was studying at my Jr. High School gym in the afternoon the day before a History exam. My favourite uncle who died from cancer was also on it and offered me help with the exam, which I kindly declined saying that I was grown up enough to deal with it on my own. I see from inside my ex-FWB passing by, and he stops and we talk for a few minutes, he wishes me good luck and leaves. I soon realize I don’t know what chapters I have to prepare for the exam. Then I see some of my classmates studying and decide to go ask them. They were a girl from Jr High who used to spread rumours about me and a friend’s ex-GF from college. I was very surprised to see that it was only one chapter. In my textbook, there are some annotations in the index, which suggests that I’ve taken that course the year before and the final was like 3 or 4 chapters. It was a rather relaxed dream ‘cos it ended with me thinking that it’d be very easy. I was waiting for some friend to message me when we were going to meet to have dinner. At some point, I was about to tell him I wasn’t going anymore, but I told myself “Whatever, this exam is just easy-peasy. If I go home early, I can still ace it”. Then I start thinking: “Wait, do I have enough attendance to pass the course? Or have I already flunked the course?”. Then I realize I wasn’t even taking that course, ‘cos I was already taking a master’s. And then I woke up with our neighbour’s dog barking.

Perhaps keeping a dream journal for future comparison purposes isn’t bad at all. It might even be fun…

ど忘れ

さっき兄貴に当て宅急便が届いた。
宅急便のお兄さんに身分証番号を聞かれたら、
なかなか覚えられなかった。

帰国してもう半年ぐらい。
最近はど忘れがわりと多い。
こないだは電話番号も、
クレジットカードの暗証番号も。

使わないと忘れちゃうのは当然だけど、
3年間しか海外に住んでないのに、
なんで忘れちゃうんだろうねorz
年をとるってやつかい(笑)

Era Isla des Diamants (ebook + audiolibe)

Eth març passat, eth Conselh Generau d’Aran que publiquèc ua edicion digitau deth libe «Era Isla deths Diamants» de Mossen Jusèp Condò Sambeat en grafia originau (felibrenca) e classica.

Un mes mès tard, entà Sant Jòrdi, eth Institut d’Estudis Aranesi (IEA) que’n publiquèc ua edicion audiolibe, liejuda per Maria Elvira Riu.

Qu’ei tostemp plan de veir qu’eth Conselh Generau, après ua bona tempsada sense cap de navèra, que contunha de méter ara disposicion de totis mès edicions digitaus deras suas publicacions en aranés.

Forgesitaj memoraĵoj

Mi nun legas tre interesan libron, nome “Invisible” (“Nevidebla” hispanlingve), kaj rimarkis ion pri tre komplika momento en mia vivo, kiun mi preskaŭ tute ne eblis memori.

Tio okazis kiam mi estis 21 jaraĝa. Tiam, aferoj ne glate iris kaj mi eĉ provis memmortigi min, sed feliĉe malsukcesis. Dum mi provis, miapense mi fulmvidis plorontan panjon kaj tuj haltis.

Dum la monatoj kiuj ĝin sekvis, mi komencis toksan amrilaton kaj ne plu havis tempon havi tiajn neemajn pensojn. Estis 3 longaj malhelaj jaroj, kiuj emigis min serĉi la bonajn aferetojn ene de treega neemeco.

Mi ne estas dankema al mia ekskoramiko, sed iasence ja pensas, ke estas laŭ la proverbo asertas: eĉ plej granda malbono al bono kondukas.

Lecturas

Siempre qu’acabo un libro o una serie, me siento un poco fuera de lugar. Ixo no tien cosa que vier con si me cuaca o no l’acabanza. Ye mas bien como se bel dia ixos personaches estasen parti de la vida mía, y de repent ya no, y me tocase pasar pachina. No sabo si m’explico, pero a lo millor he a menester tiempo pa superar-lo. Por ixo me cuesta empecipiar bella cosa nueva asinas de seguiu.

A ormino los habitos los sigo relichiosament, pero cal namás un dia pa crebar ixe ciclo. Con la lectura me pasó muitas veces de tener bella temporada en la que no me vagaba lier cosa y lugo rematé sin tocar dingún libro por anyos. Por ixo, pa yo ye mas facil conservar l’habito de la lectura si me toca pillar lo transporte publico cada dia. Ye l’unico momento seguro de’l dia que pase lo que pase, no siga que dixe lo triballo, sabo que lo vo a tener.

Lo periodo mas intenso de lecturas que he teniu en los zagueros anyos estié, de feito, en lo 2014/2015. Triballaba 44 horas semanals, pero bi heba tiempo pa ir t’o chimnasio cada maitin, lier en lo tren, estudiar luengas dimpués de cenar y pa quedar con los amigos los findes. En la primera anyada en Chapón lieba, pero menos porque lo tiempo de viaxe en metro era pro curto. Y lugo, en las dos siguients, ya no lieba cosa porque no heba a menester pillar lo tren y lo tiempo libre qu’habié lo dedicaba a la carrera y a lo master que feba de vez.

Fa bellos meses que so tornau ta casa pa terminar lo TFM. Agora no triballo, pero tampoco no tiengo guaire tiempo. Incluso he teniu que dixar lo chimnasio, pero miro de lier bellas pachinas antis d’ir ta la cama. Lo ritmo ye lent, pero a moniquet vo tirando d’encima bel libret…